Posted by failedsurvival | Filed under Depressed,Depression,Sad,Suicide,Change,Life,Story,
It seems I haven’t posted anything in such a long time, it may seem strange.
But I am alive, I haven’t killed myself yet. I’ve been going through some intense life changes and I’ve been really busy.
The thought of ending my life is…well a bit less but it doesn’t go away. It’s always on the tip of my brain. The thought is always there, but I feel less complied to commit the act.
My parents made me move again, to a batter country this time, but still not a developed one. I hate my life and the person I’ve become having to go through all of this. I didn’t notice that much before but it seems that I’ve changed so much. I used to be a loud outgoing person before we moved, but now I’m a quiet person and I hardly socialize. And there’s really not much that I can do about it…
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February 9, 2012
Posted by failedsurvival | Filed under Depressed,Hope,Sad,Lost,Depression,Suicide,Suicidal,
I really don’t know what I’m living for now a days. I don’t enjoy doing anything. I can’t remember what fun feels like. What’s the point?
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October 6, 2011
Hi:) I just ran across your blog. As soon as your old enough, use your talents and run. I don't really know but your writing was really good. Stay strong till the day of freedom. Poor your feeling out on to paper if you are a good writer ect. Practice, get good, succeed and leave. I have a similar life like yours but I hide it because no one believes me. I am going by my plan and succeeding. Although if your struggle is unbearable call 3ll. ask for help. Ive called several times. It helps:)
- anymannymore
I used to want to be a writer when I was younger. I kind of like writing sometimes, but I don’t think I want to write a book that depressing. Good luck with your plan though. I’m not sure if I have one
September 26, 2011
It’s a bit weird to describe how I’m feeling sometimes, but it feels like my heart is getting ripped out all the time. I don’t have heart problems but the emotional pain is so much it started getting physicak.
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September 26, 2011
I know it's hard now. But (excuse my cliche) it will get better. My ask is always open, gorgeous <3
- drhorribleismyspiritanimal
Waiting for things to get better is so hard.
September 25, 2011
Hey there. I was just stopping by to say I hope you are doing okay. I am just here to remind you that you are beautiful, strong, loved, and needed. You are amazing, talented, caring, and giving. You take care of yourself and love yourself. I’m always here if you need to talk. Just send me an ask. xx
- suicideisnotanoption4u
I’m not a single thing you just listed
September 25, 2011
please don't do anything to hurt yourself or end your life. You deserve to live. Think of stuff that makes you happy. You're a beautiful person. stay strong. <33
- Anonymous
I’m not even sure what makes me happy.
September 25, 2011
I love you. Please don't take your life.
- thatonesuperqueerguy
My life ending is inevitable.
September 25, 2011
Dear, I'm not sure how old you are, but someday, you're going to get to move out. And you'll get to be anyone you want. You can sit on a couch made of pants and smoke weed and do whatever else. It may suck because of money and rent and all that, but you'll have freedom. You'll get to be who YOU want to be. You just gotta wait out the storm.
- luckylecky
Someday is just so far away. I’m not even close to being tough enoguh to wait out that storm.
September 25, 2011
My smile’s look faker than this now a days
September 25, 2011
hey beautiful, how are you?
- andnowiwalktheline-deactivated2
The same as always.
September 25, 2011
You are so beautiful. I remember when I used to self harm and want to die, all I wanted was someone to tell me I was good enough. Well guess what, YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! You are so loved by Christ it's crazy. I'll be praying for you love.
- Anonymous
What am I good enough for? Because it sure doesn’t seem like it’s gonna get any better than this.
September 25, 2011
Hi friend. It makes me so sad to read through your blog. I know I'm a total stranger but I'd genuinely like to help you. If you want someone to talk to, just hit me up. xx
- summer-scott
It’s a bit hard for me to open up to a single person. Trust issues and all.
September 25, 2011
Hey hon, just wanted to say hello. I know you're going through a hard time, and I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. There are those who care and want to see you happy. It gets better love, it does. Much love!
- thethiefthatstolemyheart
The only people who seem to care, are halfway across the world, and there’s something about that that isn’t right.
September 25, 2011
What third world country are you in?
- Anonymous
It might sound extremly dumb. but I’d rather not say.
September 25, 2011
